It has been way too long

As you can see it has been months (ok over a year ) since I wrote. I`m always afraid of writing because I know it will rehash a lot. I'm not sure if I want to get into it all, but I am at work and I swear, I've been rethinking my career choice. I …

Catastrophic Brain Bleed

So It has been 3 weeks since my dad passed away. Suddenly. Unexpected. Yes he had Alzheimer's, but it was at the stage of asking the same question 2-3 times. Maybe he was unable to focus on TV shows like he used to. Anyways, bottom line, he was healthy. My mom found him making loud …

Wow, I need to focus on something!

So, we are now in July. School year ended and thank goodness. It was a crazy year that is finally over. Students were great and understanding. I need to find a new focus. I mean I obsess about things and go overboard. I worked out so much I thought I was going to collapse and …

So now what?

It has been too long and I think I know why. I think that when I write I have to face me emotions and feelings. We are now March 31st and the world has gone to hell in a handbag. I've been working so much and I've been working out excessively and I've been counting …

I think things are not going well…with me

So we are now September 21st and I am not feeling well. How do I know? I was working out and the person doing the video said "exhale all that negativity" and I literally fell to the ground sobbing... When I picked myself off the floor I said to myself...this isn't working. I am always …

Start of school

So, After the bad news in March, we got good news at the end of June....June was very hard for me.. I took my son on June 19th to the hospital to get an MRI. It was the same say my sister passed away 2 years ago. I cried the whole day. I cried for …

Day….? Who knows

So, we`ve been in quarantine forever. I think it is getting to us. Last week I went to get groceries and decided on my escape from home I would call the hospital. I had not been sleeping since the last call we had. I called and called until the nurse answered. By the way the …

Quarantine and even more bad news

So we`ve been home for 2 weeks now. Being a teacher, I am also home with my kids. My husband`s company recently closed also, so we are all home. It hasn't been bad honestlty. Boredom takes over, but I have good kids so we are all ok. My son had 2 checkups last week, both …

I want to be the Catcher in the Rye

So, we had our check up with the team of doctors. Whenever I say that I think of my sister. When she went from her 1 oncologist to the transplant team, she wasn`t happy. I had asked her why.... She said " I had 1 doctor. Now I have to have a TEAM. It's not …

Is he in remission?

So it's been a while since I wrote. My mind and soul have been spinning. My kids have been sick... My son had his scan on December 24th. I called and called everyone at the hospital to get results. I was freaking out because our next appointment is the 30th of January. Exactly 1 year …