So we are now September 21st and I am not feeling well. How do I know? I was working out and the person doing the video said "exhale all that negativity" and I literally fell to the ground sobbing... When I picked myself off the floor I said to myself...this isn't working. I am always … Continue reading I think things are not going well…with me
So, After the bad news in March, we got good news at the end of June....June was very hard for me.. I took my son on June 19th to the hospital to get an MRI. It was the same say my sister passed away 2 years ago. I cried the whole day. I cried for … Continue reading Start of school
So, we`ve been in quarantine forever. I think it is getting to us. Last week I went to get groceries and decided on my escape from home I would call the hospital. I had not been sleeping since the last call we had. I called and called until the nurse answered. By the way the … Continue reading Day….? Who knows
So we`ve been home for 2 weeks now. Being a teacher, I am also home with my kids. My husband`s company recently closed also, so we are all home. It hasn't been bad honestlty. Boredom takes over, but I have good kids so we are all ok. My son had 2 checkups last week, both … Continue reading Quarantine and even more bad news
So, we had our check up with the team of doctors. Whenever I say that I think of my sister. When she went from her 1 oncologist to the transplant team, she wasn`t happy. I had asked her why.... She said " I had 1 doctor. Now I have to have a TEAM. It's not … Continue reading I want to be the Catcher in the Rye
So it's been a while since I wrote. My mind and soul have been spinning. My kids have been sick... My son had his scan on December 24th. I called and called everyone at the hospital to get results. I was freaking out because our next appointment is the 30th of January. Exactly 1 year … Continue reading Is he in remission?
I was watching a movie with my kids. Middle School. It is a comedy. We laughed until we realized the main character lost his brother to cancer. I started crying because it described the bond that 2 brothers had... best friends... I guess a sister bond is as strong as a brother bond. The movie … Continue reading Thank God he survived his cancer…
I have become so stressed and anxious it is ridiculous. I panic for everything, I jump to worst case scenarios for EVERYTHING! I've become insane. My son looks tired....I have such a bad feeling that this fucking tumour is back. He looks a little off. I can't explain it. I can feel it. Am I … Continue reading When will this stop
That constant feeling in your gut. That constant panic. That feeling that the sky is falling.... Is this a forever feeling? My son did his scans a few weeks ago and now we are going for the results... 3 weeks later...no stress. It's like I've been holding my breathe forever. I just want to breathe. … Continue reading This is forever?
So we went through radiation treatments. 7 weeks, 5 days a week. Hair loss Hair growth Tumour got smaller, but it is still there... I asked if it means it is inactive, if it will never grow back, if this nightmare is over.... No to all of my questions. This is an extremely rare tumour. … Continue reading So it’s been a while…